First Day of the NEXT Forever

Starting To Change

I know that the change I speak of it inevitable  

I know that most people do this much earlier in life

I am a late bloomer for the first time in my life

My determination has never not shown itself

but what I was working toward is now changing

Sailing off into the sunset and not trying to fix anything

what a concept!

Enjoying the moment and knowing that it is good for me to do so

Giving a little less to others 

and Giving the MOST to me

I am giving to someone close to me 

as Mother Teresa did

only this time

for the first time

that person is me

It is even hard to say it

It feels like a betrayal to someone

Like I have no right to do it

Like I have no place in the life equation of me

A SELFISH act replaces a SELFLESS series of acts

But it is the next generation of myself and the one that 

must occupy my thoughts

Do I have the guts to make it last

and not slip back into what is comfortable and familiar?

I will focus on the friend that is happy

everyday

every moment

And take that ONE lesson from her

Do not waiver

Do not give in to what is comfortable

Save this tiny bit of information for youself

And dive into deeper stiller waters

First Day of the NEXT forever

I suddenly feel like I have a super special secret

and yet to the world I am doing EXACTLY the same thing